I will not think about you tonight. I will not miss you. I will not wonder where you are. Or if you are with her, side by side. Drinking, singing, laughing, making love...falling asleep with your arms wrapped tightly around her.
I refuse to allow you to be my constant ever again.
How could you take all those words and just put them on a shelf? Wasn't I more than that? Didn't I mean more than a song that simply collects dust? Because I could write a symphony for centuries about everything you've put me through.
There are pages upon pages that i have written about your eyes, your touch, all of my lust for every inch of your soul. And yet.. You didn't listen. You didn't even take the time to hear everything I could not say myself.
You were supposed to take care of me. So instead I'm going to take care of myself. Because the truth is, I will never be 'safe' from you. I will face our memories every day as little reminders constantly crawl in to my world, peering in through windows of opportunity for nostalgia. Each one is a reminder of why I stayed, and why I left.
God, how could you not listen? Even at the end you still found a way to sell my love short. You managed to rip me out of limbo once again only to reduce me to dust.
But the wind has always been my ally, and I trust that it will carry these ashes you have left far away from the emotional terroristic destruction you have caused. I have already started to rebuild myself. I am becoming who I am meat to become. I am realizing that everything i thought I wanted you to teach me, I already know. And everything I haven't learned, I know now that I can without YOU.
This time I'm not coming back.
This time I know you are gone forever, and any hope that was stashed away in my heart, is now on display, in flames.
Goodbye my creator, my savior. And thank you.
I don't think there is a sound that I hate more
Than the sound of your voice
When you say that you don't love me anymore
But I saw you fall in love with no hands up
And I saw you fall in love with no hands up
And after all
You felt so small in his arms
You felt so small under the charm that warmed your heart
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