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[Nov. 18th, 2009|02:52 pm] |
i can already feel you starting to pull away from me.
that horrible distance in your voice is almost more than i can take. thank you for understanding. but i guess even empathy doesnt make up for what we will eventually have to follow through with.
what will that apartment feel like without you around? when that time comes, will the walls cave in and collapse around me? or will the ceiling open up to reveal a great big beautiful sky?
i will maintain my faith in the later.
and if you find someone else? no. no, i cant even begin to let my mind go there. i hope she loves you like you deserve.
or will you go back to her...
so for now we will coexist, continue living in this awkward place i can't even being to explain.
but that city is calling my name, my journey has been made so very clear to me. THIS.IS.WHAT.I.HAVE.TO.DO.
and that little city to the north is where i have to go.
either way, we will survive, with or without each other.
god i tried, i tried so hard to make it work. but this is just not meant to be. i love you with everything i have, but it's not the love it used to be.
this will be hard, and time will not make it any easier.
but life and love will prevail. fuck the hallmark bull shit, it's true.
it's all happening... |
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[Jul. 12th, 2009|08:21 pm] |
you make my skin tingle. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2009|12:30 pm] |
i have all these dead emotions coursing through my veins. i can't tell one from the other.
maybe it's the weather thats brought me down.
maybe it's the death that has been surrounding us this month.
all i think about are the wrong things. the things that wouldnt solve anything and would probably only make things worse.
then again some change may not be so bad...
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 26th, 2008|03:14 pm] |
HEY!
i miss you.
i know you dont care and that's FINE.
you've moved on, i've moved on.
you're in another city.
far away from your memories.
i just it was different.
i wish things had been different.
*end nostalgia* |
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[Mar. 18th, 2008|06:15 pm] |
Oh gotta see, gotta know right now
What's that riding on your everything?
It isn't anything at all
Oh gotta see, gotta know right now
What's that writing on your shelf
In the bathrooms and the bad motels?
No one really cared for it at all
Not the gravity plan
Early, early in the morning
It pulls all on down my sore feet
I wanna go back to sleep
In the motions and the things that you say
It all will fall, fall right into place
As fruit drops, flesh it sags
Everything will fall right into place
When we die, some sink and some lay
But at least I don't see you float away
And all the spilt milk, sex and weight
It all will fall, fall right into place |
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[Dec. 1st, 2007|06:37 pm] |
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if i fall anymore in love with him, i swear to you all i'm going to e x p l o d e. |
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[Sep. 15th, 2007|10:26 pm] |
it totally fuckin happened.
<333 i havent smiled like this in years. |
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[Sep. 4th, 2007|08:34 am] |
it's
never
going
to
happpen. |
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[Aug. 29th, 2007|04:05 am] |
i want something.
i cant have.
god damn it. |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2007|01:04 am] |
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i.am going.to get through.tomorrow. |
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[Jul. 25th, 2007|02:31 am] |
shit. (nothing makes sense)
so i won't think about it.
at least certain situations are improving.
while others have just been shot straight to hell.
fucking.bitch.
my friends are so much more than i could ever ask for. i have taken so many of them for granted and now im grateful and appreciative for each of them.
and now i can only hope things will get better, before they get worse. |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2007|12:27 pm] |
where to even start?
the anger?
the fear?
either way i cant wait for this to be over.
and i cant WAIT.. until you get what you deserve. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 16th, 2007|04:27 pm] |
GOD DAMN IT!
I AM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED I COULD SCREAM! |
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[Jul. 16th, 2007|05:37 am] |
از دوستان بهترين.
persian: the best of friends must part.
(for my memorial tattoo for parisa)
(or)
باد آورده را باد میبرد.
* Literal meaning: What wind giveth, wind taketh away. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2007|03:00 am] |
things are getting done! life is improving.
thank god for good days. and even on ones like today that arent all they should be... i know it's guna be okay. |
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[Jul. 10th, 2007|04:42 pm] |
But i guess fear has a way of making sleep unbearable,
and the days seem dark and long.
But we cry and we dance,
and we stumble into love with perfect, awkward grace.
The moon is gone and the sun has taken its place |
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[Jul. 9th, 2007|06:21 pm] |
alright, well.. if thats how youre guna be...
then fuck you.
fuck you in your stupid ass. you are just like the rest. |
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[Jul. 9th, 2007|05:34 am] |
will you PLEASE just do us all a favor... AND SHUT THE FUCK UP?!
thanks.
in other news: it's about time to get up and move on, don't you think? |
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[Jul. 5th, 2007|02:07 am] |
shit day.
shit week.
shit... everything.
complaining is over rated.
divorce sucks.
something tells me tomorrow is not going to be any better.
god damn it god damn it. im exhausted.
and what am i bitching about? things that matter to me? bull shit. fuck it. WHO CARES?! even im sick of myself. im sure everyone else is too.
i want to be anywhere except my couch right now.
THANK GOD FOR NEW COMP BOOKS! |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2007|02:17 pm] |
we have a problem.
a big one.
fuuuuuck. |
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