Prototypical non-conformist.

finewithoutyou @ 2009-11-18T14:52:00

2009-11-18T20:52:25Z

i can already feel you starting to pull away from me.
that horrible distance in your voice is almost more than i can take. thank you for understanding. but i guess even empathy doesnt make up for what we will eventually have to follow through with.

what will that apartment feel like without you around? when that time comes, will the walls cave in and collapse around me? or will the ceiling open up to reveal a great big beautiful sky?
i will maintain my faith in the later.

and if you find someone else? no. no, i cant even begin to let my mind go there. i hope she loves you like you deserve.
or will you go back to her...

so for now we will coexist, continue living in this awkward place i can't even being to explain.

but that city is calling my name, my journey has been made so very clear to me. THIS.IS.WHAT.I.HAVE.TO.DO.
and that little city to the north is where i have to go.

either way, we will survive, with or without each other.
god i tried, i tried so hard to make it work. but this is just not meant to be. i love you with everything i have, but it's not the love it used to be.

this will be hard, and time will not make it any easier.

but life and love will prevail. fuck the hallmark bull shit, it's true.

it's all happening...

finewithoutyou @ 2009-07-12T20:21:00

2009-07-13T01:27:36Z

you make my skin tingle.

finewithoutyou @ 2009-03-15T12:30:00

2009-03-15T17:34:46Z

i have all these dead emotions coursing through my veins. i can't tell one from the other.
maybe it's the weather thats brought me down.
maybe it's the death that has been surrounding us this month.

all i think about are the wrong things. the things that wouldnt solve anything and would probably only make things worse.
then again some change may not be so bad...

finewithoutyou @ 2008-04-26T15:14:00

2008-04-26T20:13:16Z

HEY!

i miss you.
i know you dont care and that's FINE.
you've moved on, i've moved on.

you're in another city.
far away from your memories.

i just it was different.
i wish things had been different.

*end nostalgia*

finewithoutyou @ 2008-03-18T18:15:00

2008-03-18T23:13:18Z

Oh gotta see, gotta know right now
What's that riding on your everything?
It isn't anything at all
Oh gotta see, gotta know right now
What's that writing on your shelf
In the bathrooms and the bad motels?
No one really cared for it at all
Not the gravity plan
Early, early in the morning
It pulls all on down my sore feet
I wanna go back to sleep
In the motions and the things that you say
It all will fall, fall right into place
As fruit drops, flesh it sags
Everything will fall right into place
When we die, some sink and some lay
But at least I don't see you float away
And all the spilt milk, sex and weight
It all will fall, fall right into place

finewithoutyou @ 2007-12-01T18:37:00

2007-12-02T00:35:59Z

if i fall anymore in love with him, i swear to you all i'm going to e x p l o d e.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-09-15T22:26:00

2007-09-16T03:27:54Z

it totally fuckin happened.

<333 i havent smiled like this in years.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-09-04T08:34:00

2007-09-04T13:33:17Z

it's

never

going

to

happpen.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-08-29T04:05:00

2007-08-29T09:04:43Z

i want something.

i cant have.

god damn it.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-08-02T01:04:00

2007-08-02T06:04:25Z

i.am going.to get through.tomorrow.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-25T02:31:00

2007-07-25T07:30:42Z

shit. (nothing makes sense)
so i won't think about it.

at least certain situations are improving.
while others have just been shot straight to hell.
fucking.bitch.

my friends are so much more than i could ever ask for. i have taken so many of them for granted and now im grateful and appreciative for each of them.

and now i can only hope things will get better, before they get worse.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-22T12:27:00

2007-07-22T17:28:14Z

where to even start?

the anger?
the fear?

either way i cant wait for this to be over.

and i cant WAIT.. until you get what you deserve.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-16T16:27:00

2007-07-16T21:27:48Z

GOD DAMN IT!

I AM SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED I COULD SCREAM!

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-16T05:37:00

2007-07-16T10:37:59Z

از دوستان بهترين.

persian: the best of friends must part.
(for my memorial tattoo for parisa)

(or)

باد آورده را باد میبرد.

* Literal meaning: What wind giveth, wind taketh away.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-14T03:00:00

2007-07-14T08:00:46Z

things are getting done! life is improving.

thank god for good days. and even on ones like today that arent all they should be... i know it's guna be okay.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-10T16:42:00

2007-07-10T21:45:26Z

But i guess fear has a way of making sleep unbearable,
and the days seem dark and long.
But we cry and we dance,
and we stumble into love with perfect, awkward grace.
The moon is gone and the sun has taken its place

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-09T18:21:00

2007-07-09T23:21:04Z

alright, well.. if thats how youre guna be...
then fuck you.

fuck you in your stupid ass. you are just like the rest.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-09T05:34:00

2007-07-09T10:36:37Z

will you PLEASE just do us all a favor... AND SHUT THE FUCK UP?!
thanks.

in other news: it's about time to get up and move on, don't you think?

finewithoutyou @ 2007-07-05T02:07:00

2007-07-05T07:25:37Z

shit day.
shit week.
shit... everything.

complaining is over rated.
divorce sucks.

something tells me tomorrow is not going to be any better.
god damn it god damn it. im exhausted.

and what am i bitching about? things that matter to me? bull shit. fuck it. WHO CARES?! even im sick of myself. im sure everyone else is too.

i want to be anywhere except my couch right now.

THANK GOD FOR NEW COMP BOOKS!

shit.

2007-07-02T19:18:27Z

we have a problem.

a big one.
fuuuuuck.

taking it or leaving it.

2007-07-01T07:36:07Z

CLERKS is perfect background noise.
I need to get a new job and a new comp book.
new social interactions would be lovely.
overnight vacation anyone?

this week is going to be a productive week. ya? ya.

would you like me to list the reasons why it wouldnt work?
haha, i didn't think so. fucker.

ps: wtf? WTF? wtf.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-06-21T14:54:00

2007-06-21T20:07:54Z

i have nothing whatsoever to say.

i used to update this journal religiously. now its a once a week ordeal.

god damn it.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-06-15T03:05:00

2007-06-15T08:06:44Z

where are you?

no good.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-05-29T15:14:00

2007-05-29T20:24:51Z

things are going to change... i can feel it.

finewithoutyou @ 2007-05-18T17:02:00

2007-05-18T22:05:10Z

And one day we will die and our ashes will
fly from the aeroplane over the sea,
But for now we are young let us lay in the sun,
And count every beautiful thing we can see,
Love to be in the arms of all I’m keeping here with me.

i will answer the questions no one ever wanted the answers to, i will open myself up to whatever comes my way. i will be honest and true, and beautifully new. how fucking sentimental.. but we all have to believe in something.